At last, i got to taste the Beer Battered Fish and Chips that's heavily raved about by many on Sat.
The one at Toa Payoh!

They have this malt vinegar that really bring out the taste of the battered fish, like totally.
5-stars hotel standards with coffee shop prices.
Their cream of mushroom ain't those with smooth texture. They blended the mushroom into tiny bits. Not something i really fancy though it tasted nice.
I'm sure that i will go there again.
Aw i can smell the fragant vinegar even by thinking about it.
But but but, note to self: never order their teh peng again.


Lunched at this Thai eating house at Bedok today.

Stir Fried Kang Kong, the Thai style.

Green Curry Beef and Pineapple Fried Rice.

Not really sure whether they tasted authentic. My memory of Thai cuisine is Thai Express. Can't blame me ah.
The green curry's a lil salty, but i guess it is meant to go together with plain rice.
Anyway, the Stir Fried Kang Kong was nice. The amount of garlic they used is.. freaking lot. That explains the strong but (!) not overwhelming garlic taste.

Enjoyed great food this weekend with <3.
Can't wait for Wed to come.

HAHA WHAT'S WITH THAT FACE?!!!
lol.

and oh,
ihaslakasbf!
=P

It feels so good, to have someone to hold your hand and lead you through the dark.
It's the sweetness that overflows.

-

Hectic days; weeks.
I'm so occupied with assignments and they seem to be dawning on me like a big fat monster.
Last semester for my diploma, so i should endure through it.
And soon, i can fuck care studies.

Overseas trip!
I want i want.
But when?

Oh only if you're here.

I realise that i do cry easily.
I cry, when i get seriously pissed off, like big time.
I cry too, when i feel seriously guilty or bad for doing or causing something.
But the thing is, i don't really get pissed off big time often, and i seldom feel seriously guilty or think that I've done something really wrong or bad.

So at the end of the day, i do cry easily.
But i seldom cry.

Time flies, doesn't it?
Now it's already May and what have i achieved?
What have you achieved then?
Soon enough it'll be the end of the year, and we will all be welcoming year 2011.

What have you done today?


Maybe i should consider locking this up.
oh well oh well.

It has been long since i last cried on bed.
Well well, i just hope that this time round he won't be that bastard.
Or maybe, i'm just being dumb to take his story.
Whatever.

Tired like shit.
Assignments + my own stuff + assignments + damn fucked up weather = irritated!

Now my only hope is that whatever I am doing now does show result.

I'm having this fucked up mixed feelings, and i have totally no idea how to say it or where should i start.

Lets start with today.
Went to send Kevin off just now, and after knowing him for like.. 6 - 7 years, it's the first time i saw his family members. And almost everyone who is flying off is with their families. It makes me wonder again. Say if i'm the one flying off, i think i rather go alone.
Well, i have been meeting Kevin for these few days, and whenever i saw him, i'll ask whether he got contact him or ask him out. The answer is always no. And when i asked that person whether he got ask Kevin out, his answer was that he's really occupied. Only till just now that Kevin told me that he has sent him a text. The thing is, is he really that busy to even meet up? If that's so, why do i see him writing stuff that shows that he has nothing to do, feeling sian, and etc on his fb?
Isn't that (*#&#*^&$%~?!
I don't know what i should say. But friends don't stay with you forever. That's for sure. Friendship's like a business. It doesn't work for itself, you have to work to build it, and work harder to maintain it. Being egoistic is a destructive act. If it continues, all i can say is don't regret at the end of it, for i know that he's all ready to forsake. I am too, upon realising that friends are something that i can survive without.

Next matter that i gonna say out loud.
Matthias Ang Bock Chuan, when the hell are you going to return me my S$1000? You're such a wimp. Can go thai disco, can play around, or should i say, sleep and fuck around with thai girls and you can't fucking return me my money. Should i tell them that you fake your depression just to get your stay-out and going in late status? or should i tell them that you are working in the evening and is able to earn around 1k every month? Plus your NS pay, it'll be at least 1.4k? AND YOU CAN'T FUCKING RETURN ME MY 1k, after soooo many months. All you know is to ignore my texts, and what else? Freaking nothing.
Oh not nothing. You can do lotsa stuff.
Like faking a history of having a driving license when actually you don't.
Or cook up stories to gain sympathy from others, and actually convince yourself to believe that those are actually real. wow. Amazed. Fucking amazed.
If you're someone nicer, i may consider forgeting about the 1k.
But you're not, and you never will.

Lastly, relationship stuff.
It feels good to have someone holding you when walking down the street.
It feels good to have someone hugging you when you feel down.
It feels good to have someone giving you warmth when you're cold.
It feels good to have someone who you can rely on.
But but but.
I'm still scared.
Very very scared.
I want a secured future, not one that's full of uncertainty.
I want someone with plans for his future.
I want someone, who can give me security, warmth, hope, happiness, and love.

Only if.. only if..
The world is fucking ugly.

I am sure that I gonna make things ugly FOR YOU, if you ignore me and still refuse to return me my 1k.
I have my ways and you won't wanna know what they are.
And I am pretty sure that you will regret if you've seen them.
GET ME?

Yes, I am fucking desperate for money.
And you will never be able to imagine what people who are desperate can do.

Slept at around 7am after the drinking session and i woke up at 10am automatically.
Power i tell you.
Met Janson and we went to town for window shopping.

Walked and walked and walked.
Stopped for snacks at Cathay.
Din't know that there's sooo many stuff to eat at the basement.
To think of it, it's my first time there, at the basement i mean.
He's such a poor thing. Can't eat his fav food.
Haha.

And so we continue walking, all the way to Esplanade.
Music never fail to do miracle.
First time in don't know when that I feel so cheered up.
Aw. Love-hate relationship with Music.
Hai.

We slacked at there from like 5+ pm all the way till 9pm or something.
Can't remember exactly how long.
Then we took bus 10 to Simpang Bedok for dinner.

All along, i'm feeling all bloated and uncomfortable.
Damn bad.
Like super bad.

Reached home at around 12midnight?
And yea. I'm starting to think that I'm crazy.
Maybe I'm just too tired.

One thing for sure.
I'm falling sick again.
>.<
Flu now.
Nice one ah.

Was out drinking last night with Kevin and his friends again.
Someone's flying off soon. How i wish i can go too.

Sat by the riverside after drinking and everyone started getting emo.
Aww i damn miss the feeling of being on stage.
Damn damn damn miss it.
>.<